Last month I met this supply teacher. I had a conversation with him about Alice In Wonderland since I was doing a project on it. He by mistake he called me Alice when I was leaving the class.

After that class I was lucky to meet his wife. She was a supply teacher for my french class. We had a great conversation about Schools and how her and her husband goes to china to teach. I was supposed to be doing work that class instead I just sat there talking to her.

At the end of the class her husband walks in. He sees me. The look on his face was pretty priceless. He seemed very shocked that she had me as a student also. I got excited went "HI SIR!" he turned to his wife said "Oh I see you had Kayla" They spoke a little about me. Then it was time to go.

I saw them both again. Spoke to his wife. I dont think he remembers me anymore. I know his wife must. I guess Im writing this to say I miss them. They are great people I hope they are having fun teaching in china.

R.I.P. Julie, I guess I knew you Im sorry I dont remember you.

Maybe if I had I couldve saved you. Your death effected everyone in a way.

Most a lot of your friends miss you. You were really loved. You still will be.

I never knew a suicide could effect so many people. I think everyones asking "what if" and "why did she do it"

Are you ever not busy or distracted for me?..

It hurts

Im scared I wont be able to take care of my mother after her operation. Im scared.

R.I.P DJ.

Its all Ive got to say really. I barely knew you. Heck I dont really know how to spell the other part of your name/nickname.

I do remember your amazing singing voice. Also when you were signing up for Maritime idol, you called your grandma for your address.

Its only been four months. Yet your silly face is why I awake each morning. You give me the reason to wake up. You love me for me. The shy insecure semi broken girl. Youve fixed most of me. Soon allof me. Youve stopped me from cutting. Now I cry because I miss you. I cry for your arms to be around me. I cry every single time our webcams end and I cant see you anymore 'till the next day.

I love you JDM forever and always.

P.S. I hope your not mad about this picture (:

Not all of us are what the media will call pretty. Yet, We all are pretty. We all are beautiful. Im supposed to look on the good side of things. But I cant help but think of all the people who think they are ugly. I dont know if anyone even Jake will be reading this. I still couldnt resist the urge to say this one thing on my mind.

I go on a girls formspring tell her shes beautiful when she least expects it. I dont have an account so its anon. She doesnt know its me. I doubt she has the slightest clue. There are days when I talk to her that I almost tell her. I guess one day she will know that its just me. But atleast ill make her feel better until then.

I still dont think im beautiful but I cant say im not. Only five people has said I was pretty. Everyone else says im fat or ugly. I dont let it get to me that often. I dont think I ever did. I Was self conscious at some point I dont know why though.

Kelsey if you read this. Please dont starve yourself Like I did. Love yourself. For you are beautiful in every way. Maybe one day just maybe you will finally believe me.